Malaysia

‘Why am I hated,’ Zara Qairina pens

Coroner's Court hears troubling testimony from child witnesses on 13-year-old's mental state, school incidents and peer behaviour

Updated 11 months ago · Published on 26 Sep 2025 8:43AM

‘Why am I hated,’ Zara Qairina pens
Two pupils gave evidence stating they had heard Zara pose troubling hypothetical questions about self-harm - September 26, 2025

THE inquest into the death of 13-year-old Zara Qairina Mahathir continued this week in Kota Kinabalu with harrowing testimony from child witnesses, revealing emotional distress, strained family dynamics and alleged bullying in the days leading up to her death.

Lawyer Azhier Farhan Arisin, who is representing one of the children involved in the case, told reporters that two pupils gave evidence stating they had heard Zara pose troubling hypothetical questions about self-harm.

“Two witnesses testified that Zara had, on more than 10 occasions, said things like: ‘If I jump from here, would anyone still love me… or what would it feel like?’” Azhier said during a media briefing.

He added that although the Coroner’s Court has yet to formally verify the authorship of a diary said to belong to Zara, a second witness recognised the handwriting in the notebook shown to her.

“In the diary, the writer expressed feelings such as, ‘Ya Allah, why am I hated?’ and ‘Why am I not liked?’ When asked if Zara had ever said those things out loud, the witnesses confirmed that she had.”

Azhier also disclosed that the first witness had mentioned an incident of tension between Zara and her mother two days before the teen was found unconscious at her school in Sipitang.

The witness, who had stayed over at Zara’s home, said both girls were dropped off at school by Zara’s mother on 13 July.

“There was an episode in which Zara was scolded by her mother. The witness recalled that Zara appeared reluctant when shaking her mother’s hand upon arrival at school, suggesting a lack of sincerity.”

Azhier stressed that no conclusions should yet be drawn regarding the cause of Zara’s death, as many more witnesses are scheduled to testify.

The inquest resumes tomorrow with two additional child witnesses expected to take the stand.

Further testimony from the third child witness painted a troubling picture of Zara’s treatment at school. Lawyer Joan Goh said Zara was repeatedly accused by peers of theft following a previous incident involving a missing water bottle.

“On 14, 15 and 16 July, whenever something went missing, other students would immediately suspect Zara,” Goh said. “This stemmed from an earlier case where a bottle was found in her locker.”

Datuk Ram Singh, who is also representing the children’s interests, said he was “taken aback” by testimony describing the use of abusive language among pupils.

“Ms Goh had asked whether this behaviour was normalised in the school, whether it came from the school environment, or who may have taught them such language. The witness’s responses were fairly consistent,” he noted.

Summarising the testimony of the three witnesses, Azhier said Zara had once been summoned to explain the disappearance of a student’s belongings. During the process, another unrelated incident unfolded in a neighbouring dormitory.

“Without instructions from senior students, a group of Form One pupils began searching Zara’s bags and locker. They found a badge, believed to belong to one of the dorm leaders,” Azhier said.

One of the dorm leaders allegedly used vulgar language toward Zara during the incident, despite her denial and repeated insistence that she had not taken the badge.

“The witnesses said all students later returned to their rooms, including Zara. On the night of 15 July, they reported no unusual noises — no sounds of Zara being assaulted or dragged,” he added.

The inquest proceedings are scheduled to resume today, with two more child witnesses expected to give their testimony. - September 26, 2025

Spotlight

Anwar unveils six measures for Malaysians ahead of Merdeka

By Alfian Z.M. Tahir

Malaysia

Xavier Jayakumar warns racial, religious politics could erode Malaysia’s unity

Malaysia

DOE: Close schools, kindergartens if API tops 200

Malaysia

WhatsApp messages help rescue of two brothers lost in Bukit Putus

Malaysia

King grants audience to Anwar, briefed on Merdeka Day preparations

Opinion

Merdeka: This is our Malaysia – and you will not take it from us

By Vinod Sekhar

World

Covid-19 fears return in South Korea as mask, test kit sales surge

World

91 Malaysians still unaccounted for after Nepal-China floods

You may be interested

Malaysia

Mood swings, secretive finances early signs someone may be trapped in a scam

Malaysia

King, Queen lead National Day celebrations as more than 80,000 gather in Putrajaya

Malaysia

Sarawak: EC to display proposed 17 new state assembly seats tomorrow

Malaysia

Four arrested after 29-year-old seriously injured in Kajang attack

Malaysia

Anwar warns Malaysians: Reject racial, religious division to protect unity

By Ian McIntyre

Malaysia

Tour bus crash at Kanowit roundabout in Sibu Jaya injures 23 people

Malaysia

Abolish ‘Colonial-era’ Sedition Act - Ramkarpal

Malaysia

Sabah poverty figures, tourism ranking among Malaysia’s quieter gains, says World Bank economist

By Alfian Z.M. Tahir